Its about 3days left before entering the year of 2014...
A year that my title supposely change to somone's partner...but that is all about my passed which is I may not turning back...
To many things happened on this year..starting get in love with sum1..yet dump by him...but im so damn glad coz I do have my best ever besfren..whom act like my guard..my boyfren...my pillow..n alway lending me a shoulder to cry..thnx!
I couldnt imagine my life without u on my side...
However..day by day..the aged getting increasing...I couldnt stop u looking on other gurl to b ur partner...hurm...seems like I have to step away...letting u go..looking on ut future partner which is u should look for...
Even though letting u go is the hardest that I have to do...but that the only way that I have...n yes...I kept prayed...n wishing that I dont ever have to letting u go...stil being my best shoulder to cried on...n pillow...n my warmer....hopefully..my dream came true...

ubat hati duka lara

Its almost 8months it happened...
And I...im still the old person whom keep looking for sum1 that already written at Long mahfuz that he is my mr right..

Hurm...
Sumthing when the time passed n I was alone..
Its made me keep thinking where was my mistake...
But..wat ever that happened..
Im glad that there is a guy always be my side no matter how I am...but yet I do still gonna loose him once he had sumbody else...the circle of lone ranger will started back...

Dear guy out there....
Plis do in love with the gurl sincerely...
Do plis take care of her nicely...
A women wasnt a cloth which u may change everyday...
Jgn cbe syng seseorg kalau ade niat akan meninggalkan....
Jgn cbe mencri yg lain hanya sbb utk mmbalas rasa...
Jus plis put on urself in shoes of person that u hurt...

sudah ckup sudah

alhamdullilah..berkat kesabaran aku..
akhirnye..die meluahkan rasa dihaty..
hurm..
tamparan hebat untuk aku selepas 2thun menyembunyikan haty dri sesiapa..
dikala aku sedang amik mood tok bekerja petang..
bbm die sgt menyentap rse hati aku..
tp xpe..
mungkin die bkn jdh terbaik untuk aku...
semoga Allah SWT merahmati hubungn kalian berdua.
semoga berbahgia ke akhir hayat..

terima kasih awk..
terima kasih sbb syg sy even sekejap..
dgn ikhlas atau tidak tu..hanya awak sja ade jwpannye..
trime kasih awak..
trima kasih sbb peraku sy seperti anak ptung yng dibelai disyang bile sunyin dibuang bile puye penganti..
trime kasih tuk semua..
sungguh pon sy xterpikir awk seperti nie..
mgkin slsh saya..
slh sy nilai awak..
slh sy trime awk..
saya redha...

title...

hurm..
its about 5days more to reach out a month..
kinda miss having a boyfriend whom always seek for time 4 me..
hurm..
naaa..
enough emi..
u dont have the time nymore..
u r working..
n same goes to him..
u shouldn't ask for his time..

aiyak..
u too bz lately...
kdg2 nk mntk tlg amik blik kje or anta g kje pon rse cam...
kne fkir byk kli...
boleh ke???
xssahkan ke??

ok2..
i noted that u have own daily target..
sumting too reached on..
to earn more money or enough money before flying to the Makkah..

ok noted..
do understnad his condition emi..
he couldn't have enough time for himself..
u cant jus keep waiting for him too be with u all the time...
hurm..

i cant stop wondering either he being like this latey due of he already get use of it 4 almost past 7years or....
hurm...
mybe i should get use on it too..
ok noted..
will try too get use..

kejelesan mulai terasa

ok..
harini hari aku physio n ngedate time...
n hrini gak..
apasal nth..aku sgt terasa jeles..
sblom nie elok je hah..
sikit pon aku xeran klu si dia cerita ade org mnt die...
tp rini.
haish..
ini sudah lebih!!!
hahaha

haish..
die crita tntang seseorg...
apesal ak haty aku cm nk meletop je dgr cite tu?
jus bcoz of he got free krusher form sum1 whom like him..
aku jeles cmnie skli..
hadoiy.
parah ko nie mie!!!

#haish..sle nie xde pon rsenk jeles bagai...apsal skrg tibe2 nie?do im gonna loose him?#

panggilan itu,,,

Alhamdullilah..

die diseru untuk panggilan itu..

hurm..

entah knpe..

perkataan die..

'sy mybe g umrah satu family jun nie..'

buat aku terfikir kan mmpi die dahulu..

mgkin jika dipermudahkan urusan..

die mnjejakkan kki di sana..

die diberikan petunjuk tuk langkah seterusnya..

dan...

untuk sementara itu..

mngiraan hari yng sllu nye mnjadi rutin di bbm die utk update dihentikan sementara...

mngelak kn hati tidak dapat menerima kenyataan...

so be prepared from now..

hurm..

andai itu takdirnya..

takdirnya die bkn milik aku...

aku mngkin hanya menunggu jdh itu dtg dgn sndri..

tnpa mencari..sbb mencari itu menyakitkan sbnarnye..

#mood:menunggu sesuatu yng kurng pasti itu mendebarkan..semoga dia org yng tepat..#

131days

it already been 131 days been together 

n today was our day out after 15 days away coz of too bz with our own work..

hurm..

and yes ..

aku jd mcm haritu blik..

it takes time 4 me to get use while meet up with him..

being a bit of silent person n keep thinking ape nk dibualkan...

sorry awk..

masing2 bz sgt kan..

nk wat camne..

dua2 kje shift..

hurm..

dearie mok2..

kamo xsyg sy ?

kamo xrindu sya?

dont  u love me?

hurm...

getting marriage..

m-a-r-r-i-a-g-e...

hurm..

huge responsiblity 4 only a word..

lallalala..

tp knpe cm ramai je mmber2 aku nk kawen nie..

adoi..

kental gilo jiwe korg nie nk kawen awl..

hakhak..

xpe la..da smpai serukan..

heeee...

hurm..

nk tunggu aku nye nasik mnyk?

tunggu jangut aku cm a samad said ok..

hhahah..

so..

kesimpulannye..

aku jd tukng mkn nsk kenduri korg je la ok..

haha..gomok la aku!!

aish..

bile da kne attend knduri byk2..n jauh2 nie la..

bru terase..kn bgus ade kete sndri..

xyh mnyusahkn ssape..

or kne tompang sessape..

cpt la bln enam!!!

hahaha

kawen jom?

jom kawen?

knpe la kawen tu kne blnje byk..?

knpe la kawen tu jd ssh ?

zaman dulu..kawen tu jus perlukan wali mas kwin je..

sekrng kawen..adoiy..sume nk gah bagai..

last2 cerai..adeyh..mmbzir je duet kawen grand2..

eah..

ape bondo la den merepek2 nie ha?

haha..

datang dah mood gilo aku pepagi buto nie hah..

hurm...........

cer klu aku ckp kt die

'jom kawin?'

xde effect kot.?

die pon da lame xckp gitu ke aku?

byk bnde mikior kot..

cer klu anta msg plak?

haha..bkn die bce pon..sbb die sdng lena diulit mimpi..

haish..

jelesnye aku..

org lain sdp tido..

aku lak merepek2 kt blog nie..

3rd january 2013

after 11days..
its time for us..
jus two of us..
kinda felt like our first date..

hurm..
time passing so fast..
from 2pm..to almost 10pm..
was like too short for us..
hurm..
mybe the how we both act makes we felt it..

hurm..seriously..
i being to silent..
i dont know y.
and same goes to him..
i was wondering where is the mistakes..
hurm...
i can count how jokes that make us laugh together..
hurm..

i felt weird..
all usual things tht he always does wach time we hang out..
he doesnt do it at all..

n the time come..
on  the middle of the nite..
he told me sumthing
n i already got the hint before he spoke..

hurm..
seyesly i cried on the nyte once i read his bbm..
he ask me to do istikarah..
n yet...my tears run fast.!
the nite seems to long for me..
i was keep thinking about it..

ya Allah ya Tuhanku..
Kau permudahkan lah segala urusan kami..
Kau panjangkan lah jodoh antara kami ini...

Ameeen....