saya seorng yng hipokrit..

hipokrit ke aku..

klu aku skit.tp aku kate aku ok je??

hipokrit ke aku..

klu aku sdih..tp aku pura2 happy sbb xnk org taw aku sdh??

hipokrit ke aku..

klu depan die aku ckp bnci tp haty aku jerit syg??

hipokrit ke aku..

klu aku klu aku wat2 baik ngn die sbb aku nk jge haty die je??

hipokrit ke aku..

klu tbe2 aku diamkan diri dri berckp hnye sbb xnk die trase aty ngn aku???

hipokrit ke aku..

klu aku de prob..tp aku ckp aku xde prob sbb xnk org taw?

hipokrit ke aku..

klu aku nk ngis..tp bile depn org aku berglak ketawa??

slah ke klu aku jd hipokrit mcm nie??

15 oct 2010

the end..

after long frendship..

after 3 month in relations..

now it the end..

the end..

it is the end of all..

its the end of the story between me n you...

its the end

i hope if there is 'tools' 4 me to fix it..

but the 'tools' wasn't at me..

only he have the 'tools'..

hurm..

im being hipocrit 4 all the tyme since tht day..

try to avoid stay togther with A ..D..and N..

it make me feel jelous when look at them..

im sorry guys.

i can't..

i love the way you lie

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Eminem Love The Way You Lie lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/eminem-love-the-way-you-lie-lyrics.html
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

when i started to missed sum1..

hurm..

da kat semnggu lbh da hal nie jd..

tp nth asl nth..aku tbe2 tringt kt die..

lagi aku nk final..lg aku trigt..

mybe sbb dlu die sllu tmn aku stdy kot..

n sumtimes..

on webbie to ensure aku stdy..

hahaha..

cm klakr je..

tp bgus gak die wat aku cmtu..

ateast aku stdy..

klu x..mmg x la..

hahah.

hurmm..

rinie aku strt final..

same goes to him..

hurm..

to him..

goodluck u..all the best 4 final..

hurm...

im not gonna disturb u g..

u seem ver happynow..

so i let it be..

im sorry to say..

i cant stop remind u...

once i tried..lagi kuat n sllu i ingt kt u..

im so sorry..

fall for you

The best thing about tonight’s that we’re not fighting

Could it be that we have been this way before

I know you don’t think that I am trying

I know you’re wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you

Over again

Don’t make me change my mind

Or I wont live to see another day

I swear it’s true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended

I always swore to you i’d never fall apart

You always thought that I was stronger

I may of failed

But I have loved you from the start

Ohhhh

But hold your breathe

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you

Over again

Don’t make me change my mind

Or I wont live to see another day

I swear it’s true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

It’s impossible

So breathe in so deep

Breathe me in

I’m yours to keep

And hold onto your words

Cuz talk is cheap

And remember me tonight

When your asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you

Over again

Don’t make me change my mind

Or I wont live to see another day

I swear it’s true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you

Over again

Don’t make me change my mind

Or I wont live to see another day

I swear it’s true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Your impossible to find

im sorry i can be perfect..

I open my eyes

I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light

I can’t remember how

I can’t remember why

I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain

And I can’t make it go away

No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me

I've made my mistakes

I’ve got no where to run

The night goes on

As I’m fading away

I’m sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming

I try to make a sound but no one hears me

I’m slipping off the edge

I’m hanging by a thread

I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered

And I can’t explain what happened

And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done

No I can’t

How could this happen to me

I've made my mistakes

I’ve got no where to run

The night goes on

As I’m fading away

I’m sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

I’ve got no where to run

The night goes on

As I’m fading away

I’m sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

lapan hari ...

hurm..smlm aku berckap dengn die after 1 weeks mndiamkan diri..

aku akui aku ego..sbb tu aku xmsg n call die within 1 week nie..

hurm...

even aku xcall n msg sikit2 je..

tp hri2 aku bkak wll fb die..

tgk pe die tulis..

windunye aku kat die smnggu lpas..

xde sape taw..

hurm..

sabtu lpas die kte die skit..

dmm..btuk n selsema..

cian die..

tp aku xperasan pon..

sbb mase die call aku mlm tu.

aku da tdo sbnrnye..

tp aku lagak mcm aku xtdo g..

hurm..

sowi u..

i bkn x take care of u..

i jus xprasan u xde sore da mlm tu..

if i know u xsht.

hurm..

u..i taw i salah..

i taw now susah tok u caye i..

i taw sume salah i..

i taw..

tp...

xde ke second chance tok i?

i harap de second chance..

i xnk kte off mcm nie je..

hurm..

sebenarnye..

smlm jgk i nk taw jwpan u..

tp..

hurm..

nth la..

pas called smlm..

i lpk kt beranda tu..

otak i ingt kan blik pe yng u ckp kt i..

hurm..

i realise..

its my fault coz lie to u..

i know we in long distance relationship which is only trust that can gave to each other..

and i betrayed ur trust towards me..

hurm..

u..

i really hope for the second chance..

i pray that it wasn't the end of us..

forgive me once again..

7days 10hours 37mnutes n 50seconds.

now its already

7days..10hours..37minutes and 50seconds..

hurmm..

it's still in same condition and status..

dunno until when its gonna be like this..

waiting totally hurting me..

till when i have to wait..

when will i know the anwers.

the part that all will answered..

hurm...

163 hours..

after 163 hours happen..

hurm..

aku terase diri aku mcm org asing dengan die..

terase mcm bru knl setgh jam yng lps..

sume msg and call..

all like formal.

aku mcm da xknl die lagi..

sedeyh sgt bile da jd mcm nie..

hurm..

tp ape leh wat..

bnda da jdik..

plus..

he needs space..

and i shouldn't disturbing him..

even thou bnda da jdik mcm nie..

but seyesly

aku windu die as my beloved yng sllu take care of me..

i missed his jokes..

i missed his laugh..

i missed his voice..

i missed evrything but him..

u..

seyesly i windu kt u..

evn u suke sakitkan atie i..

but i really2 missed u..

i missed the person who always be with me once i needed..

and it was u..

gmok!!!

i windu kt u!!!

i windu u skitkan atie i mcm selalu!!!

really2 missed it damn much!!!!

maafkan sya

maafkan sya..

sya taw saya slh sbb xjujur ngn awk..

sy wat semua tu sb sy nk tgk respon awk..

awk mcm xkesahkan saya..

sya sedih..

sya ngaku saya duga awk

dengn kate sya kua ngn laki lain..

tp awk xbg respon pape..

sya fahm perangai awk yng xsuke ckp byk bile xsuke sumthing..

tp skunk nie.

awk duga sya dgn msg yng kawn awk bg tu..

it too much.

waaupon sya xnk semua nie jadik..

tp sya still ckp

'ok..sy trime sumea nye'..

sebb say xnk serabutkan otk..

awk ader test n exm around the corner..

mcm tu jugak sya...

sya ader pper keesokkn harinye..

ar u aspecting i will argue with u coz of this on middle of nite n having exm on next mornink..??

plus i already send msg to you..

i already ask dat i'll try to understnd if u thinnk u can keep go on with this relation..jus tell me n i will understnd it..

hurm..

maafkan sya klu awk rse..

saya stil xfhm keadaan awk..

sya cuba nk fhm awk..

in the same time..

saya harapkan awk tok fhm saya..

saya sygkan relation nie..

i do love you..

saya kecewa bile awk kte awk ajk break with excuse u didnt ready yet...

n sya kecewa sbb awk xterus terang ngn saya..

knpe perlu awk citekan kepada 'die' tntng ape da jd.?

saya taw die rapt ngn saya..

n saya byk cter prob saya kt die..

tp..

smpai bile awk nk sorok kan pe yng awk rse selama nie??

ape2 pon..

sya mintak maaf bebanyak...

sya xnk kite cmnie sbnrnye...

tp sya xkn pakse awk..

terpulang ar.

tp..klu kite stil cmni..

mybe sya xleh jd kwn baik awk lagi..

maafkan saya..

is it my fault?

hurm..

knpe la since few days nie aku kuat trase atie..

expecially him...

i dunno wat happen on me..

is it wrong for me to love sum1 i love most?