Tuesday, May 24, 2011

saya cinta kamu.

I LOVE YOU
Its not a weight you must carry around..

I LOVE YOU
Its not a box that holds you in..

I LOVE YOU
Its not a standard you have to bear...

I LOVE YOU
Its not a sacrifice that you make..

I LOVE YOU
Its not a pedestal you frozen upon..

I LOVE YOU
Its not an expectation of perfection..

I LOVE YOU
Its not my life's whole purpose ( or yours )

I LOVE YOU
Its not even to make you love me..

I LOVE YOU
Its as pure and simple as that..






and yes i do love you ever after eventhough there nuthing between us..i wont n cant forgot u ever..

mimpi


mimpi..
tiap detik yang pergi..
kuratapi..
tiap kenangan yang datang..
ku selami..
acap kali linangan air mata melimpahi tebing duka..
diri ini terlalu menginginkan detik-detik manis itu..
namun..
Qa'da dan Qa'dar nya..
lebih ampuh...
aku pasrah..
aku redha..
memori tu akan ku simpul mati..
bersama sekeping hati yng pernah dan tidak akan berhenti mencintaimu...
harapan ku..
agar kau selalu bahagia..
dan..
aku juga berharap..
mungkin satu tika nnt..
kita kan bersama semula..
hingga akhir hayat..


24 MAY 2011
2305 HOURS

Saturday, May 14, 2011

i missed my GMOK!


semalam..
aku kua ngn nad , daia n apai..
hurm..
g desaru..
from the whole journey..
aku le dikatekan senyap ar gak..
sbb aku bce buku..
'thousand splendid'..
hurm..
even aku dok bce buku kt blakang..
n daia lak tdo..
tp aku leh kte dgr n prasan gak la nad n apai kt depn tu...

hurm..
nth knpe ek..
leh lak tringt ari aku kua ngn mok bru2 nie..
hurm..
knpe la aku rse windu gler kt die tibe2..
mybe aku jrng text kot?
n die pon replied cam nk xnk..
xpe la..
da bese da..

hurm..
tp seyes la..
aku tringt how was us walk along at MID..
the way he secured me in KTM...
the way he knee down sincerely to put on plaster at my feet..
hurm..
it really unexpected..
aku cm xsngka giler die pakaikan aku plaster..
mse die mntk tu..
aku ingt die so aku pakai..
sat g...
die tunduk n pakai kan..
ya Allah..
terharu nye rse hty..
n it wasnt end there..
dlm KTM pon cmtu gak..
be4 nie..
mse aku kua as couple ngn die pon..
aku xpnh rse di secured smpai mcm tu sklli..
hurm..
thnx again mok..

hurm..
mok..
u kept doing sweet thing when i was wit u...
how could i forgot u?
i can't do it at all..
the more u do..
the mre fall love towards u..
im sorry coz it happened...
hurm..

really missed u mok..

hangout with nad , daia , and apai...


aha..
after almost 2years aku dok kt jb nie..
bru smlm la aku de jln jauh sikit..
g kota tinggi n desaru..
huhuhu...besh giler..
dapt lak g ngn dak2 bilik aku yng sememangnye giler..
hahaha..
hurm..
actually nk g mndi air terjun je..
but then..bile da smpai kt kota...
org tu ckp..
'leh msk je ek..tp xleh mandi..sbb tp ujan..air laju'
adeh..
putus sudah arapan..
pastu..
mule la si nad nie mngeluarkan idea g desaru..
apai lak ikotkan aje..
huhu..

hurm..
almost 4plus pm gak la kitorng smpai kt desaru tu..
ceh..mule poyo je..
xmo mndi la..
nk men air je la..
sat g..xsmpi 10minit..
da..abis bsh bju...
huhu..
sronok gler ar..

Sunday, May 8, 2011

kinda...erm.

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?
You fall deeper with each passing day,
But try to hide it in every possible way.
He's only a friend, and nothing else--
That's the lie you keeping telling yourself.
You keep on saying he's just a bud,
But deep inside, you're falling in love.
You get so giddy when you meet his eyes,
But keep reminding yourself it isn't right.
A simple glance turns into a stare,
But you pretend that you don't care.
It's "not right" for you two to be.
Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that he's just a friend?
Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
Perhaps it's "wrong" for him to know.
Your friendship can't be risked over this,
So being his girl is an impossible wish..

but is it impossible?

Saturday, May 7, 2011

happy mother's day..

Hurm....
ari nie..
hari ibu sedunie.
i tod i may clebrate it with my mom..
but then..
it jus on my dream...
my mom was miles away from me!!
hurm..
i wish i could hugs ibu before im back to JB!!!!
owH gosh..
i really missed ibu rite now..
mcm da lame gler xjumpe..
pdahal bru smnggu...
klu dok jb tu..
sebuln xjumpe pn xrse mcm nie..
hurm...

IBU!!!!
I WINDU KT U!!!
CM NE NIE!!!!
I NK HUGS U SKRANG!!!

im trying to be women ..not a female...


seorng perempuan diciptakan untuk menjadi seorg muslimah..
seorng perempuan kadang2 menjadi tulang blakang bg seseorang lelaki...
seorng perempuan itu kadang2 terlalu naik budi pekertinye..

tp..
seorng perempuan tu jugak bule menjadi ketua segala dosa..
seorng perempuan tu jugak buleh menjdi pemusah sebuah keluarga bahagia...
seorng perempuan jugak leh jadik penyebab suatu keburukan..

tp..
semua tu bergantung pada dri sndri..
xsemua orng perlukan perubahan..
tp kadang2 perubahan tu membawa lebih kepada kebaikan dari keburukan
hurm..

i had few words..
tht i will hold it till i deadth..
tht was..

' i carik seorng perempuan ataw wanita..tp bukan betine...i carik perempuan tok dibuat isteri..bkk perempuan tok bersuke ria..'

thnx to whom tht gave me the words..

plik je


hurm..
smlam aku grak g ipoh..
i was texting with him whole journey..
n today..
i didnt ave any msg from him..
till i text him..
but then..
he was late rplied..
n seems blur..
hurm..
im wondering wat did he do..
hurm..

when i was on my way back to kl...
i suddenly took my phone n read all the inbox..
and..
i suddenly recall..
wat happend to us on last tuesday early mornink..
hurm..
we has been throu very good day togther..
hang around..movie...mcd..window shopping..
but then..on the nite..
i suddenly had big curiosity im my mind..
im wondering if wat did i read was rite?
then i strictly ask him..

hurm..
u...
im sowi if i might make u sad coz wat did i ask..
i dun mean it..
i need to knew to clear my mind..
hope it doesnt affect nything..
n hurm..
im sowi to say..
i knew u mybe trase by my words..
but u do doing the same..
u also make me trse...
when u equate me with no***..
hurm..
did i look same 4 u?

xpe la..
i xamik ati pon..
u might b to stressfull..
its okay..
now everything was cleared...
hurm..
thnx 4 ur explaination..
im really glad to knew it..
thnx again..

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

quickie lunch date..


ahaha..
arinie..
aku g lunch ngn dak gmok..
urm..
arinie supposely die kje..tp wat pale sndri..
mmg sesuki die je bile die nk blik..
da la bru second day kje..
da wat perangai..
kul 12 blik..kul 4 datng lek..
hadoiy...
mmg xle nk kte ape da..
xpe la u..
kite date kejap ek..
date kt pasar keramat..
ahahaa..
lawak je..
nk wat cmne..
klu dirancang mmg xpn jadi..
so kne la sudden je..
nway..
thnx 4 tmn lunch td!!

Monday, May 2, 2011

~ MR.Z ~


hurm..
02052011
the day i wont forgot at all..

my first hangout with him..
after broke up after 7months..
n again the venue was the same..

midvalley for movie n mc'd..
urm..
eventhou we already broke up..
but we seems like nuthing happen..
the most memories ever after..

hurm..
kepada Mr. Z...
sya syunk awk sgt2..
love you la..huhu
thnx pakaikan plaster kt blister saya td..
n awk wat sya rse secured sangat mse dlm train otw blik..
trime kasih awk!

hurm..
bkn nk bg kamo bngga..
tp..terpakse gak ckp..coz dat was did i felt..
im being myself when i was u..
n only can gve me the sincere smile ever..
i have no idea wat types of gas did u gave for me till i can felt that..
nway..
again...thnx!!
im very hppy each time hang around with u!!

SAYA SYUNK KAMO KUAT2!!