good motivation

hurting me

its hurting me once i love you

but what is the way

for me to forget you?

days by days..

i kept praying to forget u..

i kept praying that i may forget u if u didnt meant for me..

but you always in my mind?

how could that be?

who ar you actually?

why i've like this since i let you go..

n since u find me again..??????

its the time

the time u ask me to walk away..

then i will walk away..

without turning back..

you such nuthing..

you just being fool to me..

im wondering who are you..

did i know you?

why its to hard for me to let you go..

why its to hard for me to forget you..

i knew im hurting myself

by keeping u as my goodies

its you..

its you..

its you that hurts me!

so now its the time..

its the time for me to learnt

its the time for me to leave you

its the time for me to walked away from you without turn around..

my bad day..

hurm..today was very bad day for me..

argue with te staff..

misunderstood wit my own fren..

haish...

im stuck!!!

since yesterday..i felt like fuck off!!

lots of things appen around me..

hurrm...

few my fren jus came back from work..

i felt sumting unconfortable suddnly..

n yet..

one of them also felt the same thing..

haish..

its quit ard to make people understnd wht did we had giving hint actually..

but then..when we need to be strictly mke her understnd..

they will misunderstood..

hello!!!

i got my own reason y did i shout out it like that ok!!!

im not like suke2 jus shout like tht...

i knew its very annoying and irritating..

im sorry ok..

i dont meant it..

hurm..

watever it is..

i didnt mad..n for me ..i didnt take this as sensitive issue which i need to take care while i was saying bout it..

it nutiing ok..

could for plis understood me 4 moments..

n try to understnd the reason y i shout it like that???????????

im stuck in both

hurm...

semalam..setelah sekian lama..

akhirnye aku mengaku kat zul yang aku still love him..

hurm..aku syukur sbb aku da branikan diri tok ckp hal tu..

tp..

aku sndri takot klu die trase aku nie ape lak nnt..

hurmm..

semalam pon aku chatiing ngn ali..

hurm..

ali luahkan ape die rse selame nie kat aku..

urmm..

im sowi ali..

how could i accept u if i had sumbody else inside my heart..

im totally sowi ali..

i knew i hurt u to much..

zulfadli..

i know that i dont deserve to felt it towards u nymore..

but..i also dont know why its to hard for me to forget u as my ex lover..

hurm..

what should i do??

when the CHN period was over..

aha...

today my last day 4 CHn posting.

n for the last day..

atlast..madam knew oue bhviour...

ohoho.

its such a good moment today..

we had laugh together..

aha..

the most happy day ever.

sume gara2 farahun n maom..

giler.

abis madam pon tergelak skli..

first tyme msg2 wat perangai kat umah PATIENT!!!

aha..

seb bek..patient ok nyer..

hahah...

mmg ngok sgt2 farahun tdi..

eauw..

kne samak la...

measure tape td..

hahahahah...

after 11 days

after 11 days..

ketenangan aku makin suram dari hari ke hari..

mungkin amalan harian ku telah aku tinggalkan..

aku mula leka ngn kehidupan aku di dunia..

harinie..

aku menangis di tikar sejadah..

terasa betapa kerdil diri aku..

terasa betapa berdosanya diriku..

hurm..

alhamdulillah..

sebaik shaja aku sarungkan telekung ke badanku..

aku dapat rse suatu ketenangan yang aku aku tinggalkan selame nie...

aku harap aku dapat kekalkan ketenangan aku nie selamanye..